When Tomorrow Comes

BACKGROUND

I lost an uncle early this year ( February 2020). I liked him because he was so comfortable to be around and he just seemed to like me. His wife and himself loved having people around including my family and he gives me financial suprises.Imagine having an an unexpected text message that turns out to be a credit alert from the bank 🤑.

I had big plans for him. I remember his birthday last year (2019), I practically forced my self to give him what I had because I thought it was too small.

I also remember that he invited me to a family picnic December 2018, I agreed but cancelled at the last minute because I am often self conscious and it’s not unusual for me to pick a book over people. I don’t really do well in social gatherings- I am socially awkward at times, So I didn’t go and he was angry with me. I saw pictures of the picnic and wished I went.

Now that he is no more on Earth I triple wish I had gone because I would have had an extra memory of him at least and maybe a picture with him. I never even got to even snap a picture with him- for some reason I can’t explain , that also hurts and made me feel bad.

When Tomorrow Comes, If Tomorrow Comes.

Some people are stuck in the past, others are stuck in the future and some in the present- ( I think I am one of such people who is stuck in the future 😒) I have to be deliberate about pulling my head out of the cloud.

The present needs me, But I often do not acknowledge the memo.

When I think about it, I wonder how I would recognize when the future comes if my sight is set on tomorrow.

That’s why I think the present is the most important part of our existence, it sets the tone for the future, becomes the future and rolls into the past. Repeat cycle again 🤷

I am learning to appreciate the little things, I intentionally take time to sit out with my neighbors sometimes too, or to talk with my small circle.

I am making little progress. I am still so much used to being by myself but I am learning to reach out to people and to initiate conversations.

I think we should all be intentional about living in the present.

Actually, my big lesson would be that living life is not all about me, Sometimes today’s opportunity is all I would ever get to appreciate someone, encourage another, to give, to pray , to listen because people die, friendships fizzle out, generally things change.

Making the best of today AKA the present- would mean making good use of the little you and I have today. Doing what matters to us however way we can , making memories, loving and living.

I am learning to live right here, to stop postponing what I could have done today till later.

Today AKA the Present- is God’s gift to you and I.

Bloom💕

P.S. I wrote this post last year and I suppose it just got ripe enough for posting.