I get scared of trying something new. I literally feel a weight as heavy as a rock at the bottom of my belly. And the basis of my fear?
“Well ,I don’t want to make a fool of myself”
Why am I even writing this?Because I remember I have never travelled by air. The one time I should have travelled by air, I came up with a flimsy excuse and spent 7hours on the road instead.
This scenario always plays out in my head. I imagine myself in a plane, the plane takes off and starts its assent, then my stomach revolts and I throw up!
You know what’s funny or not so funny🙁?I don’t particularly enjoy travelling by road as well. This is because the roads are mostly bad, and I have a tendency to get car sick.
But I would pick the familiar over a novel situation any day. This is because it is easier to deal with the familiar than a novel circumstance – Yes that’s my rationale.
And there are a lot more things I have not done or don’t do because of reasons like…
” I am scared”
“It might not work”
” what If I am not accepted “
“I don’t want to be laughed at or scorned”
“What I have done is not good enough”
“I am not good enough”
Does any of this sound familiar to you?
But I have got Good news!
I have found a vaccine against my arsenal of fears and like so many things in life, I am learning it(just a minute, I will reveal it soon) .You see, I always thought what I lacked was self confidence , but not so( and maybe I do. I am still finding out)
But what I do know now is that an important ingredient of self confidence and self acceptance is Courage. Yes , the often sidelined COURAGE. Yes, courage is the vaccine I earlier spoke about.
Courage I am learning is doing something afraid.More than anything in this season of my life, I am learning to embrace courage.
The courage to try new things, the courage to accept my mistakes, the courage to accept the things I am not, and the courage to be me- let me add the Courage to travel by air 😄
Keep Blooming 💞