So I am a year older today and do I feel good? Oh yes! but I think fabulous is the word. Let me let you on a little secret though, my past birthdays were usually a little bit damp.Days prior to my birthday are usually reflective and most times I always get off with being deeply dissatisfied with where I am and even who I expect myself to be. So there is always this part of me that feels sad on my birthdays… But of course friends and family later cheer me up with their love and good wishes .
But I have to tell you that this year I AM HAPPY, I feel Fabulous and its from within. So you ask, WHAT’S CHANGED? To answer that question with all sincerity, I think what’s changed is my attitude to life. Truth is I have still not met up with my personal growth and development requirements in terms of who I think I should be and what I think I should be doing
- Am thankful for my loving family and the Amazing friends in my life. I had friends constantly reminding me of my birthday when I still had a week to go and by the way I rarely celebrate birthdays. My roommates actually sang for me when it was 12Am and they wouldn’t stop talking about what the day should entail. Those are blessings l tend to take for granted… But which I have decided I would consciously adore and respect
- I have decided to be grateful for the seemingly little success I have had both in my character , habits and every other spheres of my life.
- I have decided to appreciate my growth process and not talk down or look down on me. I have come to realise that I am my biggest enemy and obstacle when I talk down or look down on me. Hence I have made the decision be my Biggest fan… To always cheer me up and encourage me when the going gets tough
- Most of all am thankful to God who I believe is first and in fact at the centre of my world. Truthfully my belief in Jesus is my life’s best decision and choice. He has made the present worth living and the future worth looking forward to. That means I don’t get to just shuffle my feet through life but I get to enjoy it!
ANOTHER CONFESSION- I really want to say I love the woman I am becoming but truth be told Sometimes am unsure of the kind of woman am becoming. Sometimes am at loss for what to do or why I do what I do… But no way am I going to let that put me down just because I can’t seem to see into the crystal glass of my future. So I have also decided to trust God with me , like literarily put my future in his hands while I focus on who I am right now and let God mould me into who he wants me to be.
You’ll notice that most of my resolutions are based on the words “decision” and “choice”… That’s because I have realised that some essentials like ” happiness” , “encouragement”and “contentment” will continually elude me if I don’t take it personal or if I expect people or circumstances to always hand it over to me.
And Speaking of REFLECTION,
I didn’t ignore it. I still look back and evaluate myself based on where I am and where I want to be. The difference is that I admit to my self that where I am and who I am is all part of the process of becoming what God wants me to be. So I have decided not to get all stuck up on life but continually learn and get better. Life does not get any easier, I suppose we just get stronger.
So, I will review my dreams, visions and goals and adjust if need be. All in all, I am determined to Live my Life and to Love it.
Although its my birthday, But I really want to celebrate every aspiring person both Male and female out there. Its my desire and prayer that we won’t give up on us and our dreams, we would become secure in our selves ,support each other rather than compare, and that each day and challenge reveal to us how strong we really are.
Finally that we would not live a lie but that we would live a life we love.